Lately, I've been a big ole bag of crazy emotions. You can see my crazy below...in fact let's count the crazy. ;)
That I haven't done this in a month, and I feel bad about it.
I miss it.
Most importantly, I miss all the people that drop in to say hello and of course, all the people I get to visit as well.
I'm a little disappointed that I haven't been good about keeping up. But I guess that's life.
Emotion #1- Disappointment
That I'm jealous of my oldest daughter, Elizabeth.
She's in swim lessons this week and next. Every day we walk into the pool area, and I wish it were both of us in the water.
I may be a pasty white girl, but I LOVE to swim. Hence, the jealously.
Emotion #2- Jealously
I am super proud of Elizabeth too.
She is going underwater, kicking really well, and listening to her instructor.
She was a little afraid to jump in today, but that's been it.
Emotion #3- Pride
That I was a little bit miffed that Elizabeth didn't believe me when I told her I was a dr.
You see we got her a dr's kit, and I got out my old labcoat for her to wear.
It's a nice one. No blood or excrement on it, but instead my name embroidered. It's a "show" labcoat, not like the ones I actually wore when I was in the lab.
So I told her it was my coat...and she told me mommy wasn't a dr. I don't care about the title part, I mean I have never had my students address me as dr, but it bothers me that she didn't believe me. That I could be dismissed so easily.
And then I thought, this is a small glimpse into the teenage years...and I shuddered.
Emotion #4- Frustration
That I took advice from Blue's Clue.
Yeah, the tv show.
Steve said when you are frustrated to take a step back and breathe. Then think.
I took Steve's advice today...ok, I took it a couple of times. Sad part, Steve's a pretty smart guy when it comes to frustration. I actually felt a lot better.
Then I instantly felt embarrassed that I took emotional advice from a show for preschoolers.
Emotion #5- Embarrassment
I was super happy last night.
I got dinner on the table, and Mark asked Elizabeth if it smelt good.
She said, "No, it doesn't smell good, it smells great!".
|Earlier when we made cookies.|
I was feeling pretty good at that point.
Emotion #6- Happiness
That I was mowing our yard the other day and the belt broke before I could finish.
Now thanks to all this rain and humidity, our yard looks like a jungle.
Emotion #7- Annoyed
I got angry this morning because Evie woke us up at 4 am.
|Yeah, I got mad at this cuteness...no one said I was mom of the year, though.|
I usually don't mind getting up, but I went to bed at 12:40...then night before that 2 am.
I need sleep. If I don't get sleep, I get cranky. But I also want to get things done...therefore, I stay up late.
Emotion #8- Anger
That I have felt all of these emotions in the last 24 hours, some in the last 6 hours, and a lot in the last two hours.
What does this prove?
A) I'm a woman and capable of emotions. (technically, I know men have emotions, but don't try to get them to admit to that)
B) I'm a mommy on a rollercoaster called "Preschooler".